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Hii internet users (and hi mom!)

I don't know exactly where to start but my life has changed a lot since the last post. (Its been so many months wtf!)

My life did a full 180 when my ex decided to break up with me. To be very fair, this should've happened years ago but there was so much more behind it. I've essentially lost my home, my business and people that mean so much to me.

But is that a bad thing?

Depends on what's more important to you. I could've had a much better life, especially with a house that will one day be paid off and a business that kept growing and growing. The catch was that I wasn't happy with all of this. I had to take so many responsibilities for that. I've led my business all by myself. From brainstorming which services could work to actually fulfilling the jobs ive gotten, this was all on my back.

The house was in an okay shape. However it was a nightmare to think about what could happen tomorrow. Could a rainstorm destroy my windows or my roof? Will I have a waterleak by tomorrow? Will someone park their car inside my home? I've had these thoughts, constantly. They've robbed so many hours of sleep.

As a people pleaser I've approved of so many things I actually didn't want, as in buying a house together for example. Lol.

Also cleaning after a person who can't take care of themselves wasn't exactly a nice thing either. I am not sure why i've kept this whole thing going for this long.

Whatever she'll be up to, I really hope the best for her, however I do not plan on seeing her ever again once all of the paperwork is done.

But am I now happier?

I absolutely am. To be honest, giving up all of this was just a relieving feeling. I've moved many hundreds of kilometers away, rented a new flat and can now clean after my own trash rather than someone elses, I no longer feel the need of operating a business and thinking about having emergency cash on the side in case someone destroys my property.

I've made more new friends in the last 3 months than in the last three years combined. But that is also partically because I actually became a likeable person thanks to my transition.

I already pass so well in some specific scenarios that i've shocked people by telling them that I am trans. And it hasn't been that long. They see me as the person who I really am, this shit makes me so happy. People who do not believe in HRT can unironically fuck off.

What are the plans for the future?

I've got no idea yet. I now get to live my now worry-free life, I get in even better shape, take even more care of myself than ever and I get to meet so many new cool people of which I've already put close to my heart (Whoever feels spoken at, XOXO).

I'd like to thank everyone who have supported me in my possibly darkest timeline and I'd like to thank especially that one girl who offered me her place when I was essentially homeless for the time after the breakup. I didn't deserve that kind of support but this has inspired me to become an even better person.

peace.

Hello online nerds :3

As you may know by now I've just had my coming out. For the last five years or so I've been thinking about how my life would be if I finally laid down my fragile masculinity.

I've went through it all. Working on myself, trying different styles, trying out new activities and whatsoever. But all of these things never made me feel like the gender I was supposted to be according to my ID. I never was a real guy. I've been always a girl deep inside me.

I've always been the sensitive kind of person that takes everything wayyyy too personally and instead of reflecting what people say to me, I never took it kindly because thats what you do if you wanna look strong????? idk either.

So I had the decision to either try it out and become the person I always wanted to be or be miserable for the rest of my life. Therefore I came out to my mother in law and my gf. Right after, I told my father about it who knows most of my struggles. My mother eventually found out too and sent me a heartwarming msg on WhatsApp. After all, they're like 600km away from where I currently live. My coworkers know about it, too and everyone is super kind and understanding towards me.

Fast forward here we are. I've been doing this whole thing for only three (?) weeks and I've gotten so many cute compliments by y'all and I am at a loss of words. :3

So what's the plan now? I've already gotten the indication by a psychologist and now I am looking forward to do my voice training with a professional and get that sweet shiny estrogen :D I'd love to talk about my progress here so please look forward for more updates, on the best vibecoded website in the world.

I've got the best moots in the world. Love you all XOXO

So I've started using linux on my main computer.

I've asked my moots about what distro to use and the majority said I should consider mint. Therefore I've installed it and after a rough start, I can now confidently say it works out of the box (kinda).

The rough start was that the in-built update tool has somehow crashed my distro and it broke the permission pop-up, soft-freezing my computer. Therefore I re-ran the update using something like GRUB(??? idk I forgot LOL) and now it seems to run flawlessly.

After searching up all my tools I use, it makes little to no difference on what OS I boot up, except that linux feels like three times as fast compared to windows. The shutdown is almost instant, too (how??).

For my main and side hustle I unfortunately need to rely on windows because it's really hard for me to migrate from MS Office to Libreoffice (or other alternatives) and because I use proprietary software that exclusively runs on windows.

Also why is proton drive not available for linux?? stupang??

I wonder if theres a way to run native windows apps on linux as well? I shall find out.

So until I need to play video games (thanks kernal anti cheats) or need to do something productive for my hustle, I exclusively use linux now. Yippie :D

Hey there, fellow moots. Welcome to my blog where I'll be sharing my thoughts on whatever crosses my mind.

This space is inspired by the good old days of the web, when personal websites were actually personal and when having a visitor counter was the height of web technology.

What to expect here:

• Random thoughts about my life
• Nostalgia trips
• Rants
• Random ass facts
• General rambling about digital life

I'm planning to keep this updated... well, whenever I feel like it. No algorithms here, no engagement metrics - just pure, unfiltered thoughts.

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